Besides the pieces of our personality that are innate, we start to gather tons of things from people around us from the moment we are born. The models we use to shape who we are; were referred to as “espejos” (mirrors) by my Mom. Recently I’ve had the opportunity to speak with people that saw me grow up and it has really impacted me that who I am today is directly related to so many of the people that I grew up around when I was a kid.

Harry Potter has the mirror of Erised which materializes that which we desire the most. What if people were also like that mirrors, and when growing up those adults are the things we model ourselves after.

Human have many flaws, but when we are growing up many of the adults we see appear to have none. From our parents to our teachers none of them seem to have any issues and its only later in life that we start to see that there are humans behind those sturdy armors. Funny thing is that even as an adult I have met many people that really never lost their armor and did not end up looking as flawed as everyone is supposed to be.

Those people are the pillars of my life and who I have been able to model many of my personality traits after. I am positive by nature, but having people growing up that lived a life of positive thinking made that easier to develop. Seeing that people can live their life truly happy despite their circumstances is empowering. What also helps is to see how unhappy and empty is the life of someone that digs for a flaw on every person or every situation.

In recent years I have been able to curve my paranoid nature when it came to many aspects of my life, and it has been liberating to not feel like the other shoe is about to drop. Being in contact with some of those strong pillars in my life makes it easier to see that the life I chose to live is completely sane. Either that or I have found a nice group of crazy people… they are my little bee’s nonetheless.

Its rough to know that my strongest pillars is not with us anymore, and I miss him so much… however, he was a big mirror to me growing up and I hope I can be at least a little bit like him. I will continue to seek truth and good relationships like he always did.

I guess in the end we all get what we seek.

Miss My Friday Feast

It was such a easy way to post something without putting a whole lot of thought into it! So in a nostalgic remembering kind of way, and simply because I know it will annoy Mesha, here are some ramdom questions on this awesome Friday

What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
I hardly ever download anything to my computer anymore, I think it was the SCII beta, but I recently worked on my uncle’s computer and put some anti virus in it.

What’s your favorite restaurant?
Impossible to answer for me. Recently I have a Sushi place that is pretty default, but Los Comales just has so much awesome Mexican food… oh and The Works… Gyros!

Last time you swam in a pool?
Did not swim but actually dipped my toes in the pool at the hotel Ann and Dave were staying when they visited Chicago a couple of weeks ago. Gym decisions at the moment are being weighted based on pool availability. I want to start doing laps again, but I have not done them since high school.

Have you ever been in a school play?
Yeap, and I have actually considered joining a theater group. Actually checked a website just last week.

Type of music you dislike most?
Not just country… any kind of music that is too drowning in my tears and depressing annoys me. Upbeat country music is cool.

Are you registered to vote?

Do you have cable?

Do you have a garden?
No but I have somehow taken over watering duty… wait a minute, how did that happen?
Have you ever won a trophy?
Martial arts medals at tournamets. I am almost tempted to commute to my old school on weekend! It has been over 7 years since I trained with Master Jang.

Are you a good cook?
I think I am above average, my wife is excellent!

Ever order an article from an infomercial?
Yes I was scammed by the ab electrocution system. Surprisingly it works, but it cannot be good for you… I wonder where the heck that thing ended, that was an awesome party prop. I think Pictionary would be taken to a whole new level if you had to draw wearing that thing.

Would you prefer being a millionaire or find true love?
Well I found true love already, so can I get a million now? (Love always)

Native Roots

Since Bea and I are going through Dexter withdrawals when it comes to TV we have been watching all The Office episodes we have available in Netflix. We rarely watch live TV now (except for the Hawks games) since we have so much available via Netflix. I am a documentary junkie and while most people will fall to sleep during some of the ones I watch. This weekend included The Mark of Cain and one of my new guilty pleasures (the marriage of documentaries with “reality tv) 30 days.

30 Days is a great show from the dude that stuffed his face with McDonalds and brought painful memories of my years as a burger flipper. I have seen most of season 1 and I started working on season 3. My favorite show until this weekend was when a Minute Man was sent to live for 30 days with a family of Illegal immigrants. However this weekend I watched as Morgan spent 30 days in an Indian Reservation.

My involvement with Native Americans outside of some extended family and friends that have percentages of native blood but have never been in a reservation; has been limited to a professional relationship with the Pottawatomie tribe while I worked on some of their computer systems. I never made it into the reservation when I was up there, and all of the facilities I visited were “luxurious.” Everyone I worked with up there in northern Wisconsin was extremely nice and it was very interesting to see how their facial features were extremely similar to people down many in Colombia.

My ancestry is hard to track, I know there are roots of many colors in both sides of my parents. One of those sides I did not learn about until I was 12 years old when I met some of my Mom’s distant relative during a summer trip. We spent some time up in a mountain in a small coffee town and I had the chance to learn about not just how coffee grows but also how a cow makes it in to a burger. A lot of the people I met up in Wisconsin looked eerily similar to some of my not so distant relatives. It makes sense, they are also in some ways Native Americans… you know the whole continent was at one point full of them.

My other weird coincidental connection with a tribe is interestingly enough the Navajo. I have extreme astigmatism, without my glasses I have a hard time focusing on detail. One of my ophthalmologist after letting me know that my eye color is actually pretty rare (gold and olive, her words, not mine) told me that she has only seen my level of astigmatism in one population before, the Navajo. A little research (google search) showed me that in fact the Navajo have a high occurrence of astigmatism, and while some of it can be environmental it seems that it is also genetic.

Genetics is a topic for another post, interesting subject for sure that I would like to learn more about beyond what I know from reading a lot about amateur fish breeding at one point. The thing that really stuck with me from the Navajo show though was the fact that the people from the tribe are stuck in two world with two cultures. I can relate to that quite a bit. One of the ladies that taught the language actually cried at the thought that her native language is disappearing. Also interesting was their view of mother earth and how connected they are to things that to the modern world seems to simply ignore.

I don’t know if I will ever get to discover where my roots really come from genetic wise or not, but it makes me somewhat sad that I have embraced civilization and I am almost allergic to the outdoors. Being connected to the earth we live in is not such a bad thing… who knows maybe some day I will actually get into the grove of a morning run to go face the sun before I start the day.

Rite of Passage

One of my cousins’ graduated from high school this weekend. Class of 2010 seemed so far way when when I knew he was going to go to the same high school I attended and yet it is here. I graduated high school here in the US with the class of 96, back in Colombia I was supposed to graduate with the class of 93… that is a whole other post for some other day. I graduated from college in 99, so it has been at least 11 years since I have been out of school and I miss those days quite a bit.

The ceremony was pretty much the same as I had experienced during my own graduations. The only difference here was that since it was at the UIC pavilion there were food and drinks available, which meant that since I was sitting at the end of the isle I got to smell the cheese fries and nachos as people were going back to their chairs. I had a full meal before heading there from previous graduation experiences without proper meals made them seem like they lasted days instead of hours.

Graduations make me go back to school. I still want to get a masters and maybe even a PHD. I love the process of getting more knowledge and discovering how little I really know about so many different subjects. I would love to go back to drawing, get better at photography and learn to ballroom dance. If I was to be completely selfish I think that if I had all the resources in the world I might just spend the rest of my life learning.

Maybe the time is getting closer to make the switch from the corporate world and become a teacher. The easy transition would be to get into the field of technical training. I miss the classroom environment and sharing knowledge is the only thing more fun about education than actually learning.

As we get older there are less and less rites, I guess what most people call a midlife crisis is one of them. I might be getting close to one even though I am not near 40 (is 30 the new 40?). All I know is that change is inevitable and I as much as I want to get comfortable with a straight 9-5 being a teacher would be a lot more fun. I dish out this piece of advice quite often… if you love what you do for a living it will never feel like work… maybe it is time for me to take my own advice.

What a Week!

We had planned to be heading down to KC today or tomorrow to make a friends graduation. We are really sad that we could not make it but sometimes you just got to take care of things that you did not know were going to pop up.

The appliance Dexter came and mercefully dispossed of two of our appliances. The dish washer seemed super new but it stopped working and we deal with it for a bit. The new one is going to be delivered today which kind of put a little strain on our travel plans but we were still wanting to do it, then the fridge kicked the bucket. Thankfully both of them are going to be replaced today and should already be on the same truck heading this way.

I have been writing lots but not finishing much. My posts seem to go into three directions and until I have the chance to maybe separate them and expand on those ideas I am going to just keep my draft count getting fatter. Work is still super crazy and busy, but there is some help coming and having good bosses is a huge plus. I am still probably still spending too many hours glued to the laptop. Today though we should be heading to see Iron Man 2 and probably a nice dinner if the delivery is on time.

We do owe Kansas City a visit and should be taking care of that soon, we miss you guys and cannot wait for the people that are coming up this summer! The weather is getting better each day and Chicago is looking awesome with green all around!