Friend or Foe
Whenever I meet someone that likes to be the center of attention, they become either friend or foe. I have to admit that when I was younger I might have tried to take the center of the attention and compete for it. I have moved on from that and do not feel like being the center of attention unless there is nobody else to take it.
The last time there was a struggle for being the center of attention it ended up being a very sad situation. I lost a friendship that I had poured a lot of effort into. Ever since I have been trying to evaluate situations and not try to ever steal the thunder from someone else, or burst any self created bubbles. People are very attached to their bubbles no matter how fragile they are. But this is not about the sad stories… this is actually about someone I thought was foe and became a friend.
I was not the most popular kid in high school, as a matter of fact I was quite unpopular. Funny thing about it is that even though a lot of the people that would pick on me thought that I did not get their sarcasm. Moving to a different country changed a lot of things and gave me the opportunity to catch up on age, one of the biggest factors on being picked on. Thanks to facebook I have reconnected with a lot of the people that I knew back then and I have started to see that there was a lot more people that I actually liked and got along with. The horrible memories I have from back then are actually just due to concentrating on the negative, there was actually more positive than negative.
During college I had a nemesis that a lot of people shared on disliking. I would challenge him every single time I could because of his knowitall attitude. He was very intelligent and capable but even teachers would get annoyed by his attitude. Funny thing was that we ended up in a very small class together, only 5 people. We went head to head every single day and the teacher was more of a referee than anything else. Towards the end of our college career we ended up having to see each other more because of a friend in common and I started to remember my days of being the outcast. I reached out and ended up making one of the best friends I have now. He is a very constant friend now that we are adults. I was at the hospital the day after he had his first kid and I was happy to hold his kid in my arms. He went from being a foe to being a great friend.
Being competitive has taken a toll on my relationships in the past and I am glad I am over trying to be better that anyone at anything. I still have fun being competitive playing video games or even board games, but professionally or in relationships it is just not worth it. It feels a lot better to build bridges and relationships than try to come out ahead.