Do I believe in God

Several things lately have stirred the thoughts in my head in regards not to religion but about God. Talking about religion is always a lost battle. Most people do not understand that its a choice we all make one way or the other. Same with what denomination or what you chose to call your imaginary friend. I am not trying to start a debate about religion, but rather make people think about the concept of God. Also, if you are easily offended, don’t waste your time reading any further.

The disturbing events of this week have brought to mind a thought that frankly has never entered my mind fully. How can God allow for such atrocities to happen. Even though what is happening in Africa and with the war should be making more of an impact, 32 college students in the most safe country in the world made it a little scary. While I have always looked at God as an all knowing being, I think that his level of control on this earth is limited and with good reason. If he wanted a perfect world where there was no conflict he would have raised gold fish in a huge bowl. I do not see him as a chess master playing a round against the devil.

I do not think of God as a scientist that is looking at the human race as his ultimate experiment. He is not placing cheese all over the maze that it is the world when there is a strong prayer. However I do think that God is powerful enough to grant miracles. I have not yet decided if the power of God is something that we all share as a single consciousness, or if he is the white bearded dude up in the sky… what I do know is that he exists. Explaining what kind of God I believe in is more complicated than a Chinese alphabet soup, or playing sudoku with roman numerals. I know I could learn to do both, but it would just take a long time. So for this post lets just try to get the brain working.

For someone that still goes to church and calls themselves a catholic admitting that at times I think of God as more the star wars force than the holy trinity is tough to do. However, I think it is all part of what my favorite thing about believing, which is free will. I also see God as someone that forgives.

I think whether I would have grown up without religion at all I would still have come to this conclusion. Believing in something bigger than ourselves is a very comforting though. The religion I chose is more based on culture, custom and familiarity than anything else. The more and more I look at what some people do with religion, the more I think I picked the wrong one and I should go with buddhism.

Fear is powerful. Without fear I think we would not have modern society and it would be a free for all full of people drunk in self gratification. I think religion is good at channelling that fear, but at times they also abuse it. What does God think about that? Not sure, Christians believe that he sent his only son but it seems like just some of them got the message, and most of them interpreted it wrong.

I think religion uses at times creates lazy believers. People that believe on something just because someone else told them to do so. I like to do my own thinking, and therefore I have to analyze what it is I believe in and how do I put it into practice. It has caused a lot of conflict between organized religion and myself, but I do not regret what I have learned.

I chose to believe because it makes me feel in control. I am the one that has to use my decision making power to make the right choices. I do not believe because I fear going to a place called hell, but rather know that I have some kind of reward waiting for me if I act in good faith. I know for many separating the thought of God from religion is almost an impossible task. So I ask you in a very polite way, putting your religion aside, if you can… define the God that you believe in.


How many Koreans do you know?

After today we will all know the name of Cho Seung-Hui who was identified this morning and the gunman, a 23 year old senior English major resident alien from South Korea.

I have had the priviledge of calling 2 South Koreans my friends. One was my Tae Kwon Do teacher, and the second one was a coworker. I spent a lot of time with them, got to know them as people and learned as much as I could about their culture. My favorite Asian dish comes from Korea.

This shooting really solidified my belief that crazy people come from all backgrounds. Until the name was relased this morning I would have never guessed that a South Korean was behind the shooting, mostly because of all the South Koreans I know. Then I thought, what if the guy was Colombian? would that make a difference?

Sadly it would. Now no matter what people are going to look at asian kids different because that is how we are trainned to think. How often do you look at a white kid in a black trenchcoat and cannot immediatly associate him with Columbine?

I am sure this kid’s life will be disected and explanations are going to be found. The thing is that like with most irrational things, people are going to try to make sense out of them… find an explanation… find a person or thing to blame. Reality is that none of that brings the people back, none of it prevents it from happening again.

I just hope that people are smart enough to realize that this has nothing to do with color, or nationality and all to do with crazy.

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No more guns!

That seems like the sane thought after hearing about the massacre in VA. I think the answer is the opposite. We need more guns, we just need to have them in the hands of the right people.

The news are saying an array of things that just make my head spin. Who should be blamed? I have heard the word porn at least 10 times in the last 30 minutes… I ask myself, what does it have to do with this?

Profile this, security that, alert here… terrorist? psychopath?

The reality here is that whoever did this has a chance to kill 32 people and himself because no one was there to stop him. Even crazy people know that they are not going to go shoot a police station, because they have guns and you will not get to kill too many. I remember the story of the carjackers that went to a city where they allowed conceal and carry and they ended up shot.

I personally do not like guns, but I feel that we need to protect ourselves and I am almost scared that if something goes down I will not be able to protect what I care about. What do you do? What if someone just picks the day you got to the mall to start killing people there?

I hate this feeling of not being safe. I know that the sense of security I had before 9-11, Columbine and today was a false of security, but it did feel great. And for the people that think this is no big deal, think if it was someone that you loved… how would you feel. If your life was suddenly destroyed by this tragedy… then what? Lets not forget that people are being killed all over this world, lets not be so naive and know that it could touch our lives any time… then again, living in fear is no way to live.

“He who gives up freedom for safety deserves neither”
–Benjamin Franklin

Fridays Feast 139

Another Friday’s Feast! Come out and PLAY!

When you were a child, which crayon color was your favorite?
Flesh was the most amazing one for me.

On a scale of 1 to 10 (with 10 being highest), how likely would you be to change jobs if it required you to move?
Hehe, I have done it twice… probably would not do it again. Very happy with where I am now job and city wise. It all depends on where you are moving to… but its a hard step to take.

Take all the numbers in your birthday and your phone number and add them up, one by one. What’s the total?
I know my Bday Total is 5 when you apply all the numerlogy crap and down to one digit… now the other stuff is just too much work… maybe later.

Main Course
Have you ever “re-gifted” anything? If so, what was it and who did you pass it on to?
Personally I don’t think I have… I tend to appreciate all the gifts I get, even if it is the ultimate white elefant.

Name something you need from the store.
Just went to the store, so it is kind of tough to think of something right now…