I will be in the Windy City this weekend and I cannot wait! The only bad thing is that I do not get to see as many of my friends as I would like to. The main reason to head out there is a baby shower… I know it takes a real man to admit that I am heading there for a baby shower, but thankfully I will have someone to bring the present in for me. We are both looking forward to hanging out in the Windy City at least for the 3 days we are going to get to spend there. Besides the baby shower will be a semi-private party where my girlfriend and ex-wife(Gwen) are going to meet… I will let you guys know how that goes. If you are in Chicago, email me for the details on the party.

For those of you that are scratching their heads going… what? Here is a little cliff notes.

I was married for 4 years to Gwen, we got divorced in 2004 just as I started this blog. Gwen and I are still really good friends. She was actually one of the many friends that was there for me for what happened next. I dated someone for about a year an a half and we ended up getting married again. It ended pretty horribly after only a few months, but because of the nasty things that happened it is not something up for discussion. She truly became “She who must not be named”. Thankfully, because it was a very short marriage it was annulled and I have very much moved on.

I am now in love and very happy with someone else, however the last relationship left a black mark on my blog that I am cleaning now. So call this the exorcism of the blog. I used to blog about how great things were, but never about the bad things got. When the nasty stuff did spill over a couple of times it was more about airing out dirty laundry than really having a personal weblog. Believe it or not, even the blog was at times a source of disagreement. Even though this space was completely mine, it became somewhere where I felt I could not truly express myself anymore. I would not let that happen again, so I have decided to really not talk about that part of my life. Sometimes I am troubled by the fact that I do not feel comfortable talking about my love life here, so who knows, maybe this exorcism is what will let me post about how truly happy I am.

Geeks are people too!

People and their labels are something that I wish will go away. If it was not for so many labels I believe that we would have a better world. Enter the word geek! It can mean so many things, yet it really does not mean much at all anymore. There are many kinds of geeks, and you cannot tell them apart. Some are geeks by choice, others because they have no choice. While it is unfair, it is what it is and I chose to embrace my life as a geek. In a sense I almost want to take the title back!

I am a geek, not just because I have been called one plenty of times but because I do not dislike the title. I can be a total anime geek, fish geek, video game geek, LAN going computer geek and the list goes on. Most of my hobbies are not mainstream, or at least they did not use to be. However, with the title comes the stigma… that people that have X or Y hobbie are socially inept smelly dudes that live in their Mom’s basement. I never got to live in my Mom’s basement, but I almost did get to move in with my sister because of some situation a while back.

I love going out and having a beer with friends, some of whom would probably scare some of my geek friends. My group of friends is like the rainbow, and surprisingly they all get along pretty well. With the exception of one of my friends that is truly socially inept, all of the others ones when faced with one another have gotten along. I cannot take credit for them getting along, only for people putting down the barriers they form… and well who would know that different species of geeks can get along?

I guess once you start seeing people for who they are and not for the labels that they carry things start to change. That and I seem to always get along better with people that are open minded and willing to discuss other’s points of views rather freely. Many people claim to be open minded, but in reality they never listen to what someone else has to say. Also, many people claim to be geeks and are really not.

KC is probably the first city where I have gotten so well connected with geek groups so quickly. The Lan scene is pretty healthy and I am checking out another couple of groups local geeks. I have already made some excellent friends there, and eventually get them all together for some food or something… and I expect that like in the past that they all will get along.

The ultimate geek, Bill Gates, became super rich and made it ok to be a geek; however it has not always been that way. While we all laughed at the revenge of the nerds, we know that back in high school or even earlier geeks were the ones that ended up with the most pranks played on them. I know, I lived through it. In high school it was not cool to program a TI8X or be part of the chess club. Not that because I went through that I can wear the geek badge more proudly, but it is something that unites you with other people that maybe did not fit into another crowd.

When I was in high school, a geek was considered intelligent. Now, it seems that just having a geeky hobbie makes you a geek. Liking the same things that someone else likes does not make you like that person, it just makes you have similar tastes. Maybe it is the internet and the messageboards that have made dissapointed me. There are a ton of trolls that hide behind a screen name and pretend to be geeks, but in reality they would never be proud of it outside of that little niche website.

The sad part of being a geek is that we have trained ourselves to be loners even when in groups. Even when we come together there is always that competitive edge that tends to separate us. Who cares if you can quote episode X of show Y. In the end we are all there because we share something. It is kind of silly to try to prove that you are geekier than someone else, but you would be surprised how often this happens.

One more thing to remember about geeks is that sharing a geeky hobbie with someone does not make you a geek. And please stop lumping together the, I refuse to take a shower people with geeks. Losers are losers and they just because they play video games or RPG’s it does not make them automatically geeks.


Thinking Blogger Awards

It kind of sucks that I did not get this from another source, because Barry is probably one of the bloggers that makes me think the most. I am not one to have mentors, my Grandpa was probably the only person that I have ever considered a true mentor, but in the blogging world I really look up to Barry, not just as a blogger but as a father, family man and a friend. On top of that he took away my capability of giving an award to Mickey… but I guess that was his friend first.

The people that read here constantly know how much I like to ramble, awards are always done with speeches so here is my litte rant. Our world might seem to be going downhill, but I truly think that bloggers are going to change the world. Why you ask… well, you can read some of that when you see who I give my awards to, but just think… we are bringing discussion back into society and little by little I think accountability might be a word to understand.

First… the rules:

1. If you get tagged, write a post with links to 5 blogs that make you think,
2. Link to this post so that people can easily find the exact origin of the meme,
3. Optional: Proudly display the Thinking Blogger Award with a link to the post that you wrote.

And Logtar’s 2007 Thinking Blog Awards go to:

1. Bea
Many of you might not know this, but Bea used to have a pretty significant following back in the beginning of the blogsphere. She has moved a couple of times and it is not as politically active as she used to be… but I have not only been inspired by what she posts, she has truly made me think.

2. Daniel
De Guia is probably one of the best writers I know. If I was the kind of person that felt envy, I would totally envy his capability of putting thoughts into words. He does not write as often as I sometimes hope, but when he does he it is worth my while.

3. Will
Mr Hit Coffee has perfected the art of blogging, being super personal but not letting us know who he is. Several times I have felt smarter after reading his blog. Another excellent thing about it is that the discussion on his comments are at times just as good if not better than the actual post. He takes the time to respond to his readers and feed discussion.

4. Tony
Tony Kansas City is someone I read before I ever even thought about moving to Kansas City. While he is not the most safe for work blog that I read he discusses things with a candor that I do not see very often. He does what movies don’t do anymore, he doesn’t think his audience is stupid. I truly find his humor refreshing and his commentary always on target.

5. Hispanic Pundit
I have felt many times as an outsider in the Hispanic community because of some of my political views. However I found this dude thanks to Oso. His goofy flickr icon is only a glympce into his hilarious humor. The man that swears he can beat me at Chess… (until I explained to him that chess with beans is called checkers.) LOL … Hispanic Pundit gets my last Award.


Another Fridays Feast

What is your favorite kind of bread?
Well… this is like asking Picasso what color paint he likes best… I love bread of all kinds, sweet, cheese, wheat, white, buns, sliced, loaf… put it in front of me and I will eat it. I love bread.

When was the last time you bought a new pillow?
Actually not too long ago. I am very particular about my pillow being very foldable.


Approximated how many hours per week do you spend surfing the ‘net?
This has gone down considerably. I think I spend at least 12 hours a week.

Main Course
What’s the highest you remember your temperature being?
It got to 104 once… it was scary, I could not even think straight. Recently it got up to 103… and I think my last job had mold in their office. I had not gotten sick like that in years.

Fill in the blank: When I ____________ I _____________.
When I hear music, any kind of music, I dance.