This year has been one of the craziest I have ever had. In many respects I feel like I have closed a chapter in my life. No, it was not that I ended a relationship, but that I have finally decided that what in consider normal is ok.
I have spent so much energy in my life trying to fight against the current and thinking that if I changed, I was going to make others around me happy. Friends and relationships suffered because of it, mostly because when you are not true to yourself, change is never real or long lasting.
I lost a lot this year, but I think what I gained was more valuable. Experience does not come cheap and every single day I gain more and more of it, even if it comes at a high price. I guess that is what growing up is all about. Those we thought we knew, are nothing like what we had envision… those we thought we did not know at all, end up being the ones that were true friends.
The things I have now are more important than anything I have ever had before.
At the end of this year I end up closer to my family than ever, also reconnected with some friends I never thought I would see again. I am starting to find myself again and I can once again look at the mirror and see myself. It has been a while since I recognized that face looking back at me.