Le Weekend

Wow, what a wonderful weekend… even though I did not feel the greatest, stomach was not all that helpful, I still managed to score a wonderful weekend.

Saturday Cielo’s sister and her boyfriend came over. He is a chef in training and one with a great future. He made homemade pizza dough for Pizza on the Grill. Check out the pictures and be jealous, very jealous because it tasted awesome. I have had brick oven pizza but this topped it for sure.

Sunday we got to go to the movies and see Madagascar, which I will review soon. How was your weekend? I hope just as fun as mine was.

Suicide

“The real reason for not committing suicide is because you always know how swell life gets again after the hell is over”
-Ernest Hemingway

“Suicide is the punctuation mark at the end of many artistic careers”
-Kurt Vonnegut, Jr.

“Suicide sometimes proceeds from cowardice, but not always; for cowardice sometimes prevents it; since as many live because they are afraid to die, as die because they are afraid to live”
-Charles Caleb Colton

“Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.”
-Phil Donahue quotes

A coworker and a friend took his own life a week ago. It has been a very difficult time for me, I am full of sorrow and regret because he was such a beautiful person. I have heard that sometimes even the smallest act of kindness can change someone’s desire to commit suicide and I wonder, could I have done anything?

I call him a friend because many times he made me smile; he gave me great advice and was always supportive of me. When I first started at my current company it felt at times pointless to have an opinion. Being new without any proven record sometimes makes what you think a little harder to get across. My friend always respected my opinion and often times supported it, it empowered me to accomplish things that I would not have without his encouragement.

He was someone I wanted to get to know a lot better, someone that I would have loved to spend more time just talking to because I know that he was full of wisdom. I understand that I feel this way because I truly cared for him not just as a person but also as a friend.

I wish I had expressed how much the little things he did mattered to me. Not saying that it would have made a difference since I don’t know what his reasons were for taking his life, but I regret not telling him how positive my interaction with him was. I will truly miss you my friend.

I cannot past judgment in his action since I was not in his situation. I believe personally that suicide is never the answer. Life can sometimes feel like it is falling apart but we have to be survivors and we need to keep on fighting. Like Hemingway says you always know how swell life gets again after the hell is over.

9 Layers

This meme has been floating around the blogsphere for quite some time, I figured it is time to do it now and challenge Cielo to do it… why you might ask, because Cielo’s World and Cielo’s Words are now up :)

LAYER ONE:

Name: John
Birth date: Feb-05
Birthplace: Colombia
Current Location: Michigan
Eye Color: Hazle
Hair Color: Brown
Height: 5’8
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Aquarius

LAYER TWO:

Your heritage: Colombian
The shoes you wore today: are black and need some shinning, Cielo’s favorites.
Your weakness: Food
Your fears: to be Alone, confined spaces
Your perfect pizza: Stuffed crush or Chicago Deep Dish, Mushrooms and Sausage.
Goal you’d like to achieve: be Debt free.

LAYER THREE:

Your most overused phrase on AIM: l8r
Your first waking thoughts: hugging mi Cielo
Your best physical feature: My eyes
Your most missed memory: Talking for hours with my Grandfather.

LAYER FOUR:

Pepsi or Coke:
McDonald’s or Burger King: Wendy’s
Single or group dates: Single
Adidas or Nike: Adidas
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea
Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla
Cappuccino or coffee: Coffee

LAYER FIVE:

Smoke: On occasion
Cuss: When needed
Sing: Too much
Take a shower everyday: Yes
Do you think you’ve been in love: I am.
Want to go to college: for my Masters
Liked high school: My last two years.
Want to get married: Certainly
Believe in yourself: Working on it.
Get motion sickness: Reading in a car, or playing some video games.
Think you’re attractive: Not really, but as long as my love does I am covered.
Think you’re a health freak: No, but I should be.
Get along with your parent(s): 50%
Like thunderstorms: Love them.
Play an instrument: A little Guitar.

LAYER SIX: In the past month…

Drank alcohol: Yes
Smoked: Yes
Done a drug: No
Made out: Yes
Gone on a date: Yes
Gone to the mall: Yes
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: No
Eaten sushi: Yes
Been on stage: No
Been dumped: No
Gone skating: Does Roller blading count?
Made homeade cookies: No, but ate some.
Gone skinny dipping: No
Dyed your hair: No
Stolen anything: No
You sound boring: I can be

LAYER SEVEN: Ever…

Played a game that required removal of clothing: No
If so, was it mixed company: No
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Yes
Been caught “doing something”: Yes
Been called a tease: No
Gotten beaten up: Yes
Shoplifted: No
Changed who you were to fit in: In some situations you kind of have to.

LAYER EIGHT:

Age you hope to be married: 28
Numbers and Names of Children: 2, 3… Tyler, John, Carlos, Sky…
Describe your Dream Wedding: It just has to be with the one I love, that will make it a dream.
How do you want to die: Old and with friends and family around me.
Where you want to go to college: hrm, not sure.
What do you want to be when you grow up: a Teacher
What country would you most like to visit: Spain

LAYER NINE:

Number of people I could trust with my life: 3
Number of CDs that I own: 50+
Number of piercing: 1
Number of tattoos: 1
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: 2
Number of scars on my body: 3
Number of things in my past that I regret: I try to not regret anything… but to put a number lets say 10.

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