“The real reason for not committing suicide is because you always know how swell life gets again after the hell is over”
“Suicide is the punctuation mark at the end of many artistic careers”
-Kurt Vonnegut, Jr.
“Suicide sometimes proceeds from cowardice, but not always; for cowardice sometimes prevents it; since as many live because they are afraid to die, as die because they are afraid to live”
-Charles Caleb Colton
“Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.”
-Phil Donahue quotes
A coworker and a friend took his own life a week ago. It has been a very difficult time for me, I am full of sorrow and regret because he was such a beautiful person. I have heard that sometimes even the smallest act of kindness can change someone’s desire to commit suicide and I wonder, could I have done anything?
I call him a friend because many times he made me smile; he gave me great advice and was always supportive of me. When I first started at my current company it felt at times pointless to have an opinion. Being new without any proven record sometimes makes what you think a little harder to get across. My friend always respected my opinion and often times supported it, it empowered me to accomplish things that I would not have without his encouragement.
He was someone I wanted to get to know a lot better, someone that I would have loved to spend more time just talking to because I know that he was full of wisdom. I understand that I feel this way because I truly cared for him not just as a person but also as a friend.
I wish I had expressed how much the little things he did mattered to me. Not saying that it would have made a difference since I don’t know what his reasons were for taking his life, but I regret not telling him how positive my interaction with him was. I will truly miss you my friend.
I cannot past judgment in his action since I was not in his situation. I believe personally that suicide is never the answer. Life can sometimes feel like it is falling apart but we have to be survivors and we need to keep on fighting. Like Hemingway says you always know how swell life gets again after the hell is over.