Chrismas is supposed to be a happy time, to enjoy with family… but throught my life it has been a painful thing at times. During the holidays a lot of people get depressed and even though my happy positive attitude does not allow for that I admit that I do not look forward to X-mas anymore.
Since my parents divorce, holidays have turned into a battle of who do you spend what with… and in the end I just end up running from one place to another. My parents getting divorced hit me really hard, and in a lot of ways I have not recovered from it, maybe I never will. Family was the most important thing to me and even though I am still very close to each of my family members individually that sense of family is now gone.
Don’t get me wrong, my parents getting divorced was a good thing. Now they both can redo their lives apart from each other and be happy. Staying together and being unhappy would have been the wrong decision for sure.
I think this year I am not going to spend X-mas with either my Mom or Dad, but rather take a trip down to Colombia to see my family down there. Most of my happy holiday memories are back in Colombia, I cannot remember any truely happy X-mas here… better start looking for tickets now.